Saturday, March 13, 2021

Embracing change

Hopefully for the better. Ds, now 12, was diagnosed with both Selective Mutism and 'on the spectrum' when he was....8? 9? We went to therapy a few times,and the dr was making progress at trust, by games and jokes, but then he went on 'sabbatical' and never came back! At that time, Dh was in a bad place, health wise. His needs got pushed to the front, a job was lost,insurance changes happened, and we left off therapy. I regret that, now. However, we have insurance that now covers the same place we were in before. We go to a diff office, and only once so far. Son is on fluoxatine, and clonidine. He says, three weeks in, that he thinks it's making a difference. We go back for check up next week. We met up with friends, for the first time in over a year. They now live 4 hours from us, but we 'met in the middle' where they were visiting her parents. Went to a park, and Ds and N picked up where they left off like it was yesterday. It did them both so much good! We are hopeful for the future, and I have finally 'embraced' his autism diagnosis. No more brushing it off as just 'on the spectrum', but accepting that this is his and our reality. This past year really brought out all the traits that I couldn't ignore any more. His frustration and depression were dreadful, and it was he that requested meds. Again, hopeful for better times. Dh is still on dialysis 3 days a week. Still on the list at Mayo Jax and Piedmont Atl. He has issues with his blood pressure dropping both at dialysis and sometimes at home. They cannot get it down, no matter the med changes, so when it drops to our normal numbers, he nearly passes out. So, clouds with our sun, but isn't that life? I'm doing okay. Bored. Not missing work, just the bit of money I brought in. But I cannot risk getting it, or giving it to DH. So I stay home. In happy news, I and he, may be able to get the vax soon. We'll know more on Mon. So, more sun! Mil took her second Moderna shot yesterday. She's the only other one in our circle, so glad of that. My fam remains silent. I did tag sister in a cute post, she replied about it, asked if I wanted more cats *NO! lol, but that was it. Son isn't comfortable having them over yet, so if I cook for St Pat's, it will be us, and perhaps MIL. We hope to get together with friends again in about 5 weeks, and we are invited to their new house once they are settled. They, like us, have been careful this past year, though they are far more strict than we have been. Having a spouse working in the ICU of a major hospital will do that. So, some good, some worrisome. We are still not back to church, though they did take up a collection for us in SS. They have been kind to us. I'm not sure when we will return. After vax? We'll have to see. I'm still working through a lot of bitterness bc of things said this past year, by our church members and others. Scales falling from eyes, and all that. Trying to figure out where and how we fit in, if at all. God's got this, of that I am sure. I hope your 2021 is much brighter and full of blessings!


  1. Yikes. That sounds like a very rough year for your family. I hope you are eligible for vaccination soon.

    1. Thank you! Vaxx for both Dh and I tomorrow! Second shots scheduled, too. Hooray!

  2. Hoping your 2021 is much brighter and full of blessings as well. God does have this, and he will take care of you, your husband and son.